A Bitter Start, Yet a Better Year

I wanted to write about how my 2025 went-a year that started with confusion and disappointment, but slowly turned into something meaningful.

For context, here’s my timeline:

2020–2024: B.Tech

2024–2026: M.Tech

Choosing My Own Path After B.Tech

I completed my B.Tech in 2024. I never really wanted to take up a job immediately. At home, there was a suggestion to go abroad for an MS, but I knew the financial burden would be high, so I said no. I decided to pursue M.Tech instead, and without overthinking much, I joined the same college.

Looking back, that impulsive decision shaped everything that followed.

The Internship That Changed Everything

From September to November 2024, I worked as an intern-and honestly, this was the turning point of my academic life.

During my B.Tech, I had a strong project idea. I shared it with a professor, but the idea was eventually taken over and never credited to me. That hurt, but I moved on.

Later, a friend introduced me to another professor who was offering an internship. When she explained her idea, I was shocked-it was almost identical to mine (maybe slightly less refined). She asked me to come back the next day with a base implementation plan.

I had to travel to Tirupati in the next three days. I told my parents about it-they already knew how much that idea meant to me and were genuinely excited. I prepared a detailed write-up and gave it my best.

During our discussion, I tried to impress her-not by exaggeration, but by confidently explaining my knowledge in machine learning and research. She gave me a chance and said she could offer either money or an internship certificate. I chose the certificate.

From that day on, I worked relentlessly. No Sundays, no breaks. Whenever I had free time, I went straight to her cabin and worked. Many people warned me that I wouldn’t get credit, but I ignored them and continued.

In November, she presented the work to a committee, and the feedback was positive. Later, she messaged me:

“Thank you. It is not yet over. Don’t wind up. There may be changes or enhancements. Another work is also there. Be in touch for training and learning.”

That message changed me.

Disappointments and Small Wins

As 2025 began, things became complicated. Some professors warned me not to work with her, saying I wouldn’t receive credit. She also mentioned authorship in a paper-but it never happened. I was disappointed and started doubting myself.

Around the same time, another professor who knew me from B.Tech started appreciating my work publicly and encouraged others to approach me for help. I helped everyone I could-not for recognition, but because I wanted to grow.

Setting a Research Goal

In January 2025, I decided that I wanted to publish research papers under my own name. A professor I deeply respect once said he completed 8 research papers during his M.Tech, and that inspired me.

I set a goal: at least 6 research papers before finishing M.Tech.

By March, I still hadn’t heard back from my internship mentor about the certificate. My ego stopped me from asking again. Instead, I poured all my energy into my work.

I gave everything to my two main research papers-to the point where I could explain every detail even if someone woke me up in the middle of the night. Alongside that, I collaborated with three more professors and wrote five additional papers.

By September 2025, I had 7 research papers ready for publication. I crossed my own benchmark. Publication may take time, hopefully in 2026-but the work is done.

A Lesson in Humility

In December, I finally went back to my internship mentor and asked for the certificate. I told her about my PhD plans and how important a strong resume was.

Her response broke me:

“Why did you wait so long? You helped me when I had nowhere to go. I’ll sign whatever you need. Just bring it.”

I walked out, stood near a window, and questioned myself-why so much ego?

Choosing a PhD

Around May, my grandfather asked me about my future while everyone else was getting jobs. My parents stood firmly by me and said, “If he nods his head, we’ll handle the rest.”

I told them clearly: I want to do a PhD.

Why? Because I believe in my ideas. Because I’m good at building them. Because I solve problems fast and effectively. Because my goal is Research & Development, not routine work.

I spoke to professors and professionals abroad. Many said the same thing: “You’re unique.” I never let that become overconfidence-I only used it to work harder.

I’ve started preparing seriously for my PhD, aiming to secure admission by March 2026. I even have an important exam on January 2nd.

I’m writing this now because I felt like sharing.

What This Year Taught Me

I started the year very average-but I’m ending it above average.

This year taught me:

Patience

Independence

Consistency

One thing I still need to overcome is stage fear. Hopefully, that day will come too.

Yes, it hurts that none of my papers are published yet. But on the brighter side, I’ve built:

A strong resume

Solid knowledge

Confidence in my abilities

Gratitude

Thanks to the 2-3 people who stood by me throughout this journey-who listened to my ideas, hyped me up when I needed it, and tolerated my endless explanations.

And a special thanks to the one person who always showed up for me, no matter when or where. I owe you one.

A Note to Myself

Work hard. Don’t expect results. Eat whatever comes. Just keep working.

God, I don’t ask for more Just give me the results equal to the effort I put in. 🙏

Thanks to everyone who read till the end.